踏入34岁的我对生日庆祝越来越简单。🎂
愿望也只是希望我爱的人和爱我的人能够天天快乐和身体健康。🙏
今年能够在自己的生日能够请假感觉真棒!😊
回想下活到34岁的我有什么成绩。
虽然不是很富有但是还过得去。
有车🚗,有房子🏠也养了3条狗。🐕🐶🐩
听起来还不错吧!😆
可是周身欠银行债!🏦💸
但是我觉得自己还是过得去。😄
事业上虽然别人觉得我很棒,不过我觉得只不过如此。😐
这份工作无法点燃我的火。🎆
可能是老板的因素吧,😕我觉得我只尽我所责。
多于的也不想做了。😧
今年都算过得不去年好。
为自己买了新包包。👜
养了一个新狗狗。🐶
去了洗脸。💆
还打算为家人准备晚饭。🍴
所以很感恩佛祖一路走来拥有的一切。
谢谢这34年保佑我和指引我。
感谢让我天天都在学习和成长。🙏
今年最佳生日礼物就是你了!
谢谢朋友让我领养她母狗生下的小狗。
从小狗养起好让我再次回忆起和Kimi 还是小狗时的回忆。
希望小宝贝能够快高长大。
听教听话。
紧张的是它是我第一次养的公狗。
Shino 的离去有点突然也勾起了Kimi 离去时的回忆。
相信没有人比我更了解Janice 的心情。
那种感觉是难以形容与无法解释。
我只能支持和陪伴她一起送Shino 最后一程。
希望狗狗天堂是存在的。
让Shino 可以在哪遇见Kimi和Dolly。
然候开开心心的生活等待我们再次遇见。
再次一起拥抱彼此。
我要相信狗狗天堂是存在的。
今年是第二次入院。
第一次是在三个月前为了检查子宫而入院。
这次入院是因为食物中毒和胃细菌感染。
不停的呕吐和拉肚子。
呕和啦倒全身无力了。
入院吊水。
住入了第二晚了。
第二天的精神都好点了。
这次真的病倒而入院的感觉有差别。
也不会想起3年前入院的感觉了。
那种期待有失望的痛都不再干扰我的心情了。
难道我又再次升级了吗?
I need courage to do tatto on my body.
I plan to tatto Kimi on my shoulder.
Will I have the courage to do so?
Sometimes there is a moment that I wish I could disconnect myself to the world.
Live in a world just myself and my dogs.
它离我已经是有五个月了。
而这个月25号还是它的生日。
自从它离开,每一晚睡觉都期待能梦见它。
直到昨晚, 真的梦见了一只小雪。
那只小雪不是它。
可是我对着那只小雪喊着它的名。
玩的很开心。
直到闹钟响才醒来。
醒来的心情都很好!
没有舍不得的感觉。
没有悲伤的感觉。
只有安心和快乐。
是不是它也投胎做另一个小雪呢?
还是我很快找到另一个小雪呢?
还是我太想念它了?
那一个都好还是感谢做了这场梦。
Another 3 months left before I marked a year anniversary in this job.
I'm still adjusting the life and adapting to this job. Not easy to travel around for 50% of my work time.
Things I appreciate most with this job are:
1. I get to the countries I never visited before. (But not for sightseeing)
2. I am given opportunity to visit others countries university, lab and industry
3. I am given chance to see other countries culture.
4. I tried others countries well developed public transportation.
5. I tried others countries local speciality and food.
6. I learnt to tried any kind of food that I may not like or dare to try before. E.g : stink tofu, beef etc.
7. I met new people
8. I listened to others countries political issues
9. I experienced every new thing when I travel.
I just felt great for the experience I had with this job.
Every trip made full of excitement and stress too.
I'm grateful with this opportunity granted for me.
I would not say I like this job but I like the experience awaiting me whenever I travel.
If you asked me now what is my dream job?
My answer without hesitation, I would like to be animal behaviorist.
I would like to help the animal by rehabilitating them especially those animal need to be rehome in the shelter.
I always believe that we are the voice to the animal.
And we should do our best to protect and help them.
I wish my dream job could be realised soon.
I wish I could do this more frequently.
Feeding the strays is something I wanted to do.
I can't provide them home but at least I can provide them food.
The feeling was great!
Before Lunar New year holidays start, I sent my phone to repair the charging port.
I reformatted the sd card when my phone was at the service centre to see if it solve the heating issue. Of course I done the back up before doing that.
I'm sure I make sure all the photos are back up before I formatted the sd. Not till second day of my Lunar New Year celebration when I noticed in my laptop, not all the photo been backed up successfully.
Among the memorable photos were Faith and Kimi photos. 200 of Kimi photos were gone. I'm totally devastated by the situation and emotionally down for the lost on the second day of CNY.
I'm hurt for the lost. Those photos are my remedy when I missed her. I will look at those photo whenever I wanted to. But losing the photos made me so nervous as I won't be ever to look at her again conveniently.
Was it a sign from the Lord to asked me to let go of Kimi? (T＿T)
But I'm not ready to let go of her. （┬＿┬）
After a series of emotionally hurt, physical wound ain't painful as emotional wound.
Everyone got their own dark side.
And that's Cookie dark side: obsession aggression.
It's getting serious now.
Her obsession is not fix on anything.
It is vary from anything at anytime.
and this round....The handkerchief that used to wipe her face.
Out of sudden she snapped on it and of course my pity finger. T.T
Should I consider professional help to solve this issue?
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Effort after continuous two night staying up late.
But why is aromatherapy?
Cause my whole house smell like cookies.
Cooking distract my focus as it keep me on focus on food I'm preparing.
Though is tiring but I'm happy with the result.
The satisfaction on the outcome is indescribable.
I'm tired but I'm happy too!
就这样你离开了我两个月。
日子过的很忙但是还是一直的想念你。
每次想念你时都免不了落泪。
真的很想念有你的陪伴。
心还是痛的。
很想再次抱你。
对不起,还是放不下你。
真的很想任性的要你回到我身边。
真的希望这只是一场恶梦。
最遗憾的是我还有很多东西还没有跟你一起完成。
我好想你!
