My 2011 Wish List

1. To lost at least 5kg in first 2 month of the year
2. To reach my ideal weight in next year
3. To get new car

That is what I got in mind....to be continue

爱情

当身边的朋友想拥有爱情时,我很想跟他们说爱情没那么简单.W=我现在拥有爱情可是很想不要这段爱情. 我想没认识过爱情。爱情真的让人痛苦，流泪，伤心和失望。爱情真的酸甜苦辣。我只想要个甜的。因为只有甜的爱情就没有那么多的痛苦，泪和伤心。真的很累。只觉得痛苦，失望和伤心。也忘了有多久没有真心的为我们做的事痛快的笑。有了自由也会有快乐吗？我真的不知道答案。我只知道我很累。很不开心也失去自我。我再也不是我自己。也找不到从前的快乐。也恨我自己为什么选了爱情。明知故犯。早就知道爱情只有带来跟多的痛苦和失望。可是还是选了爱情。

So lost~

Feeling lost recently...seem so lost..had I changed or others changed...A friend I used to thought she is kind and good seem to become stranger for me...I even felt lost in my marriage. Start wonder should I continue this relation or just end it. Just felt so lost...-_-

永恒的爱情

真的有永恒的爱情吗?如果真的有哪为什么还有那么多的离婚?两个在一起太久的恋人还是互相爱着对方吗?还是只是应为那份责任感还是已经是个习惯....那永恒的爱情在那里?永恒的爱情是怎样的?那感觉是如何的?是像当初互相恋爱的感觉吗?还是另一种的感觉?很想感觉那种感觉.一直互相爱着对方的感觉,不觉得对这份感情觉得累或想放弃.....很累...真的像找回当初那个感觉....

父亲节快乐

祝爸爸父亲节快乐。很遗憾的今年无法带你去吃好吃的。女儿今年真的无法带你吃贵的。希望明年可以补回。 对不起。

Tolerance reached limit

So gonna burst out today in office. I can't imagine with the current number of people in office  can create so much of mis-communication. The person who claimed we must avoid this kind of mis-communication are the one to create it. Gosh! She did changed recently. Showing her attitude and giving order to everyone. When something can be avoid, she don't even want to do so...tolerance reached limit when she blaming me...gosh...how long this going to last...what is the future will be?

What an experience..

Yesterday really have a good experience. Seeing those so called management people act when saw us. Is really kinda of funny. I really wonder what the company will be with this kind of unprofessional attitude. Shaking their head when we try to wave to them. And the most unethical thing is tried to eavesdrops us...gosh..CEO's sons is doing such a way. I really felt disgusted by their act....In everyone eyes in previous company, we had done wrong to joining this company. Some of them even asked one of us why choose this company. So ridiculous question. Why not this company if we can see the future in it? Gosh why all these people are so brainless? thoughtless...shortsighted....vision-less...Don't they know there are so many people hated the company? I don't blame them if they don't know. As I only found out after I left the company. Whenever I mentioned I was from the previous company, they will give me a kind of look. Weird look I said. Then only I found out there are a lot people in market don't like my previous company. And the most positive things are, they are willing to give us full support if we want to work with them. Of course is a good news. Everyone is helping each other to fight against same enemy.
I would said yesterday trip is a success trip. Seeing how they react to our presence, I do felt we had won. We will continue to win them in future

From team member to competitor

Leaving the previous company for few months, and now is on market again. There will be possibility for me to meet up my previous team member. And this time with a status as their competitor.
Even before meeting up at the market, we did came out to have dinner together but the barrier was there. There are a lot of hold back thru their conversation and felt that they did felt quite uncomfortable to chat as previously.
I believe they had been brain washed by a poisoned tongue woman. Who got no mouth ethic and professionalism in work. Thus, choosing this path equal losing friends. I do not is all will be like but did sense some of it are like that.
People once told me that because I'm too good so they are afraid of me. Haha...hope is true... 

Tough

When I left previous company to join current company, many people thought I got a better offer. In fact I didn't. Is not a better offer, is just a better future..I hope so. Yup...I got doubt on it, Cause this road is so so so difficult. Unexpected difficult...so hoping it will be better soon. 

Sometime I do doubt whether I make the move too fast...new house, new career and new burden on shoulder..

The most difficult part at the moment is my financial $$$...monthly expenses count carefully, no more shopping, no more spending money on fine dining and total go to poor life like what I had experienced before...so suffer...praying hard everyday to make sure these days past faster..where I can enjoy back my days when I can use money without thinking too much..sigh...PRAY.