从出江湖! (∩_∩)

曾经的我梦想拥有自己一个厨房可以让我好好的研究烹饪。
有过一个差不多完美的厨房也失去了。就这样停下了烹饪。
以前很多时间去煮。但是没被珍惜。搞得自己对自己的烹饪失去信心。当失去了那厨房,就不再烹饪了。因为不知再为谁而煮。
当自己有回厨房了。再次开始为最爱的自己烹饪。也再次研究食谱。
哈哈哈哈。。。原来自己煮给自己的感觉都很棒也很满足的。
看来又再次过关!现在缺少的是时间。
但是还会去找时间来做得! （＾_＾）
很多时候都是想试什么就买什么回来煮。
这个星期一次过做了自己最爱的'fu zuk yi mai'糖水, 包菜焖饭还有rosemary penne。
卖相就没有味道还可以。因该太久没烹饪了。退步了把!
我还会为自己继续努力加油的! (*^▽^*)
让自己烹饪跟多新食补让最爱的自己和家人享受! （＾ｖ＾）

Barley gingko soya skin dessert

Barley gingko soya skin ingredient

 Rosemary penne ingredients

Cabbage stew rice ingredients

The fallen Tiger of Jelutong

2014 was started quite Ok. Though sign of getting depressed at work slowly getting worse. Had been struggling through it then suddenly when I decided to take leave to gain back positive energy, but it was not successful due to the international news of a lost plane MH370 on 8th March.
My mood which is slowly picking up, out of sudden down all the way. And back to depression mode again. Is tough to accept that a plane just vanish in the air. And till date still not able to find any debris of it.
Then got a news from ex-colleague that she been admitted to hospital for chemotherapy for her leukemia which she had fought hard before.
In the same month of March, an uncle I knew passed away due to lung cancer. ⊙︿⊙
I thought it is just a bad month with bad news.
April started not bad too. A job I'd been longed for finally decided to gave me the offer. Then my ex-colleague finish her round of chemo and discharged from hospital.
But just on 16th April morning, a day after I tender my resignation with heavy heart, I saw everyone on Facebook post the news that Karpal Singh had died in a horror accident. As I'm still trying to organise my emotion for my resignation, I didn't really take the news seriously. I thought is just a prank and just can't accept the sudden news.
I told myself that no way that the Tiger of Jelutong could end up like this! This ain't true.  A man that was so outstanding and outspoken in fighting for a democracy shouldn't end up this way! This couldn't be true!
After whole day, with the Facebook wall full of the post, I know this couldn't be a prank. This is real news. Gosh..... Again, I'm depressed with the news. This is so sad. The saddest part of it is this Tiger whom been fighting for almost his whole life for a true democracy will never able to witness the day that he been fighting for. With the GE 13 result, I would say we are getting nearer to the days when the real democracy and true 1 Malaysia happened in my beloved country.
Karpal Singh, you had once before inspired me to become a lawyer like you. And you had shown me the real meaning of patriotic. I believe your spirit will be keep on by your sons. With a fallen of Tiger of Jelutong, there will be the rise of more tigers.
May you be rest in peace at the good hand of God. Please bless all your mates that had been fighting together with you so that their path to true democracy will be sooner.
You will never be forgotten. You will be in the history as a brave hero of the Democratic fighter for our nation.

还是复杂的

虽然已经做了决定但是还是很复杂的情绪。
以为很肯定的向钱看了。但丢信那时还是会痛的。 (´･_･`)
谈起来还是会落泪的。 (ㄒoㄒ)
毕竟在这里已经四年了。
从四个人开始到如今已有二十多个人了。
从乱七八糟的到如今总算稳定了。
从天天大吵大闹到如今都可以天天听到笑声。
也看到自己在这的成长。
四年在这里,有过美好的回忆也有过最伤心的。让自己学会了人生道理。看清自己的能力也看到自己有不少的弱点。
总满足不了别人和自己。越来越没有成就感。也越来越少奋斗精神。也感觉越来越耐久因为无法再付出百分百。
感觉好像被困着。无法呼吸。天天都很紧张。天天都在催眠自己改变想法。要对这些二十多个人交代做好本分。
逼自己做不喜欢的就因为我要对的起他们。逼自己读些没有兴趣的就因为我要对他们负责任。
一切都为了他们把自己逼得紧紧让自己可以当上个好榜样。
一切都好累了。已经没精力去再逼自己了。
就算自己被列为是个失败者或是个半途而废的弱者,已毫无相关了。已经不重要了。
我要的是自己的。别在为任何人了。
It's all about me now.
自私也好都清楚最候的路是家人的陪伴。
请原谅我的自私的想法。
战斗了好几个月,终于胜利的是自私的想法。
对不起不能伟大的继续下去了。