Cherish Life Home

So there, I had been jobless since 11 July 2014.
Leaving a company which I had been part of it since the day it started had left me so empty.
The place had been a place for me to cure myself during my divorce hence, it can be said I was healed emotionally by being workaholic in the company.
Thus, after back from Medan holiday, I had never felt so empty.
Still digging up the old emails and documents to fill the emptiness.
Then I plan, I plan to fill up my short holiday before new job started.
But how to make it more meaningful and not to spend money for fill up the free time?
Thus I had put Cherish Life Home in my list.
As setting up a shelter had been part of my dream when I'm a millionaire (day dreaming) one day, I guess is good for me to go to have a look at the shelter.
So once I'm back from Indonesia, I take my initiative to message them through FB as they are quite active in FB I bet they would read it.
Instead to be an ordinary volunteer, I will use my grooming skill to help groom the furkids in the shelter.
And my message is answered on 20 July. Thank god!
Heehee...after got Aunty Winnie a.k.a A Winnie's number, I called up her on Monday for direction to the shelter. At the end we met up at Dr. Goh's clinic at Taman Damai Utama, near to Puncak Jalil though it is still under Kinrara.
So this Dr.'s name had been hear many time but never met him. So I got the chance to meet him today.
I had a quick lunch with A Winnie and had a little bit char on my grooming back ground and also a pet owner.
Shared to her as well my rescue experience with MIAR too. So she also shared her bad experience with MIAR too. Sigh....some people just want fame only but not the responsibility. After chit chat for about an hour, we went to clinic to pick up Boney which can be discharge today.
When we went into clinic, saw Dr. Goh finally, wahaha...as A Winnie said, he is handsome Vet. Hhhmmm...let me think out of vets I met, he is the no.2 handsome vet. As I did dreamed to become vet before, I did show interest on the vet I met. Whahaha (*=*) blushed.....unfortunately he is married.
Hehehe....then we start our long journey from Puchong to Hulu Langat, where the shelter located.
Ok, the journey into the shelter was horror. The road is unpaved road. Wah....during that time, I really wish that I had drive a 4WD as like A Winnie Nissan Navara.
Phew....finally I make it there safely with minimal damage to my Nissan Almera. =.="
The shelter is totally different from the one I imagined it could be.
As I had a minor OCD, I always asking myself whether I can be a volunteer in the shelter as the shelter could be dirty, filthy, smelly and the dog also smell bad. Can I do that.
But to my surprise, A Winnie shelter is so difference. The big difference can be compare as there is another shelter just next door.
The first difference is the dog here is calmer. Even they bark, is bark of happiness when their mama arrived even still in car. All the dog rush out greet her.
The shelter was built very naturally not a concrete type. Though the concrete shelter look neater but it can smell bad if there is no proper cleaning.
Though there is 200 over dogs, the dogs were never too packed in an area and they roam freely in the shelter.
It is truly an experience to me. And it enlightened me that this is never an easy job.
It is a whole life responsibility. A very dignify job.
Also A Winnie had again emphasized to me RESCUE IS NOT ABOUT GLORY BUT IT IS ABOUT THE RESPONSIBILITY.
These words will be imprint in my heart. So am I ready for a shelter of my own?
Gosh...to be frank I'm not ready for it. But for the moment, I will help whenever I can either help groom the dog or in monetary.

The incredible woman: A Winnie

The doggies running out to greet A winnie

Well take care doggies

Monitoring mama whereabout

The playground

And the recovery pen with special care kids

May Lord Buddha bless A Winnie with health and also help from all over place so that she can keep on helping the furkids.
Definitely, this is never an easy job.
It is an eye opener for me and maybe an experience to learn.

好贴近

看到这个comic简直是反射着自己的心。
只不过还没找到拿钥匙的人而已。

离开了

已经离开了公司第三天。从星期五晚开始哭了3个晚上。 还是在旅行的过程里都还想念着。 到底是什么原因呢? 原本以为离开了会开心的也会放心。 可是这两个感觉都没有。 心还是依依不舍的挂念在公司里的每一位同事。 尤其是那班小的。 总觉得对不起他们。 很不明白自己的情绪。 也难过老板要自己度过所有的挑战。 丢下他还以为是个报复的。 但还觉得亏欠了大家? 心还是依然留在那而。 Line message响时多希望是Gaia group chat但是已经离队了。 再次提醒自己是我想要的。 心理很希望着一切都是这五年来的习惯。 想好好开始自己的新生活和工作。 但是也没有很盼望新的发展。 还是逗留在Gaia里的生活和工作。 每一天都求佛祖点明弟子是否做对了选择。 问佛祖为何自己会那么心痛和不舍。 为什么问菩萨时,菩萨总是叫我离开。 离开了总不觉得快乐。 太多的为什么。 每次老板求留下,说该公司很需要我时我都是动摇的很想留下。 但是还是拒绝了。 看到最后一天大家都伤心的抱着哭,让我都觉得有罪恶感。我让很多人都伤心了。 佛祖,请问您能够尽快的点明弟子吗? 如果弟子我还没有准备好的话,就让弟子尽快准备好来面对该面对的吧。 希望弟子我不是为了权利而依依不舍那件公司吧。 希望佛祖您能够让弟子跟加勇敢的面对自己要走的路。 让弟子能够比现在的我跟好跟勇敢。 虽然弟子真的很想知道为何会发生此事,希望佛祖您能够指引弟子。

无所事事的夜晚

已经习惯了放工后还会开电脑来check email。
今晚开了电脑对着银幕等待email到来。
一切都结束了。
这五年的习惯突然不用做了，觉得好空虚。
突然没了目标了。
空空荡荡的。
头脑一片空白。
毫无头绪的写blog。
workaholic了那么久突然停下脚步觉得很空。
当忙的时候， 想看戏。
现在有空了，尽然没情绪看戏。
真那我没办法。
突然很想静下来。
享受平静的夜晚。
好让脑袋休息下。
准备迎接未来的挑战。
感恩现在拥有的空闲。
谢谢佛祖！

Another reading, another sign?

Get another reading in Pulsed.
Damn...maybe Lord Buddha still knew I'm still uncertain with my decision.
Hence, He showed me with this article again:

According to science, we often hurt ourselves when we fail to forgive others. The personal danger comes in the form of remaining attached to negative, often pride-based, emotions that destroy us from inside. The same psychology of detachment may be applicable to our letting go of pet projects, businesses and even people: to the extent our emotions take over and cloud our judgment of what's best.

Entrepreneurs, in particular, have trouble letting go. George Zimmer, for example, was recently ousted as the Executive Chairman of Men’s Warehouse—the company he founded and ran for 40 years—because he was seemingly unable to modernize his vision and follow that of others. The end result was a loss to both Zimmer and his company. Men’s Warehouse no longer enjoys the charismatic leader that once drove its performance while Zimmer no longer enjoys making his company a standout in a dying industry.

Such episodes are tragic but unnecessary and they don’t have to happen to you. While it’s up to individual circumstance to determine exactly when to let go, how to let go can be mastered merely by adhering to a few simple “laws”:

Law Number 1. You are not God. Your spouse (or especially, ex-spouse) probably reminds you of this daily. Lest you forget, however, remember that even superstar CEOs like Steve Jobs could not see, nor could they prevent, their untimely departure. You have no more control, guidance or understanding of the future than anyone else—even if you’re somewhat deft at handling the uncertainty. Nonetheless, if you step back a bit and let others help in the decision-making, that deftness can be transformed into real power that can benefit your business.

Law Number 2. Let the past remain in the past. The work you’ve done was good, perhaps even great, but it’s irrelevant to determining where things will go next. Retreating to past accomplishments, especially to justify an antiquated strategic plan, is little more than a cognitive, hindsight bias. It is fundamentally connected to an insecurity that your best days are behind you and leads you to imagining you had more courage, more foresight and better knowledge in the past than you really had. Such a ‘rear-view-mirror’ approach only shackles everyone else (including you) to a reality that may only exist in your head. Shun this thinking completely. Imagine instead that every day on the job is your first one and that you must generate fresh ideas. Of course, bring your experience to the table, but don’t use it as a blueprint for strategy. Heed this law and you will be liberated.

Law Number 3. Never confuse delegating responsibility with ceding control.Delegating responsibility helps you tackle an oppressive workload. It means sharing the driving, sailing or flying with someone else: with them as a first officer and you as the pilot. Ceding control, however, involves submitting your decision-making power to someone with a different perspective and perhaps even better information. Ceding control means having a co-pilot.

Law Number 4. Choose co-pilots wisely. Somewhat ironically, George Zimmer hired many of the people who later fired him. That might seem unwise on the surface; however, it attests to Zimmer’s foresight in choosing co-pilots who knew when to change course without fear of him. In the ideal situation you would obviously keep your job, but that’s all the more reason to choose people that can help you adapt and let go in the right places. Then, listen to those people.

Law Number 5. Don’t be an information liability. My father used to say that if you’re ignorant, you’re a liability. I believe that to this day. So often, however, I encounter executives whose heads are filled with historical knowledge and views that scarcely allow new information room to enter their minds. Cognitively, they anchor themselves to what they know best—the old knowledge—and dismiss what’s new. They’re liabilities. Don't follow their lead. Be open to new ideas and become an asset.

Law Number 6. Let others love your business. Many founders or long-standing CEOs believe that only they can have a deep love for their businesses—but that’s a fallacy. Once people commit themselves and their careers to a company, they’re vested, and they can likely care more about those enterprises than their bosses and founders who, enjoying success, look forward to riding off into the sunset. Capitalize on this. Internalize Law Number 4 and cede control to committed people who will love the same company you love.

Law Number 7. Your business is not successful if it dies with you. I saved the most fundamentallaw for last. This is just a fact of life and business. If what you build here turns to dust when you’re gone, you've really built nothing at all. Thus, your every effort should be to create self-maintaining structures run by people that know how to make them succeed without you. That, in truth, is the essence, if not the very definition, of letting go.

Though being plead for keep on in the company. I just felt empathy on my boss for the trouble that I'll left behind to him to shoulder alone. We had been working closely before. But now it will be him alone. But think further, who will show empathy on me then? Where can I go to if I'm down? Sometime, too compassionate only cause me indecisive. I wish I can be more selfish and cruel. Think of myself now!