Sign to let go? !

Before Lunar New year holidays start, I sent my phone to repair the charging port.

I reformatted the sd card when my phone was at the service centre to see if it solve the heating issue. Of course I done the back up before doing that.

I'm sure I make sure all the photos are back up before I formatted the sd. Not till second day of my Lunar New Year celebration when I noticed in my laptop, not all the photo been backed up successfully.

Among the memorable photos were Faith and Kimi photos. 200 of Kimi photos were gone. I'm totally devastated by the situation and emotionally down for the lost on the second day of CNY.

I'm hurt for the lost. Those photos are my remedy when I missed her. I will look at those photo whenever I wanted to. But losing the photos made me so nervous as I won't be ever to look at her again conveniently.

Was it a sign from the Lord to asked me to let go of Kimi? (T＿T)
But I'm not ready to let go of her. （┬＿┬）

Emotional wound

After a series of emotionally hurt, physical wound ain't painful as emotional wound.

我还想念你

畢書盡 Bii - 我還想念你 I'm Still Missing You (官方版MV) - 偶像劇「聽見幸福」片頭曲: http://youtu.be/8Wnx0yFpeU8

曾沛慈 Pets Tseng - 不過失去了一點點 Just Lose It (Hurt so much)

不過失去了一點點
詞：BOSS、Jerry Feng
曲：黃柏勳

我心愛的你 我是真的好想你
好想抱一抱你
我不在身邊 要對自已好一點
別再如此傷悲
我們的未來 留下你獨自面對
真的非常抱歉 
我已經蛻變 如今幻化成千縷微風 
飛向無邊無際的藍天

不過失去了一點點 傷口卻無限在蔓延
看你無心睡眠 整夜呆坐流淚 
真想擁你入懷彼此安慰
我已失去了我的臉 無法再與你面對面
但求上帝悲憐 讓我回你身邊 
跨越夢境相擁就一次 哭一回

我心愛的你 我是真的好想你 
好想抱一抱你
我已經蛻變 如今幻化成千縷微風 
飛向無邊無際的藍天

不過失去了一點點 傷口卻無限在蔓延
看你無心睡眠 整夜呆坐流淚 
真想擁你入懷彼此安慰
我已失去了我的臉 無法再與你面對面
但求上帝悲憐 讓我回你身邊 
跨越夢境相擁就一次 哭一回

每當你痛到心碎 請大聲喊我寶貝
我就會乘風而來將你包圍
用微風溫柔撫慰 輕吻著你的眼淚 
希望你忘了傷悲

不過失去了一點點 傷口卻無限在蔓延
失控的拋物線 無法重新歸位 
留下一句不想說的再見
不過失去了你一點點 卻是我和你的終點
但求上帝悲憐 讓我回你身邊 
跨越夢境相擁就一次 哭一回

痛

皮肉伤的痛也不再是痛了。
经过多翻的考验，对于皮肉伤痛已经毫无感觉了。
变了金刚心了吗？
发现对痛的忍耐度已经再次的升级了。
会是好事还是坏事呢？！

The dark side

Everyone got their own dark side.
And that's Cookie dark side: obsession aggression.
It's getting serious now.
Her obsession is not fix on anything.
It is vary from anything at anytime.
and this round....The handkerchief that used to wipe her face.
Out of sudden she snapped on it and of course my pity finger. T.T
Should I consider professional help to solve this issue?

我家有KFC

我家有KFC 。
何为是KFC?
Kimi 是我的一只自己附上所有责任的宠物。
从医药到美容都自己掏腰包付钱。
虽然它不是我养的第一只狗但它是我第一只完全属于自己的毛孩。
后来加了Faith, 虽然它年纪大过 Kimi, 可是它是我第二只属于我的毛孩。
最近加了个Cookie。
领养它是都是为了Faith 和帮自己疗失去Kimi 的伤。
如果Kimi 还在,我一定用KFC 来叫它们的。
想想看:我家那三只KFC。
嘻嘻,听起来还不错。

我拥有KFC。

Cookie

Faith

Kimi

Aromatherapy

Effort after continuous two night staying up late.
But why is aromatherapy?
Cause my whole house smell like cookies.
Cooking distract my focus as it keep me on focus on food I'm preparing.
Though is tiring but I'm happy with the result.
The satisfaction on the outcome is indescribable.
I'm tired but I'm happy too!

没有你的日子-第二个月

就这样你离开了我两个月。
日子过的很忙但是还是一直的想念你。
每次想念你时都免不了落泪。
真的很想念有你的陪伴。
心还是痛的。
很想再次抱你。
对不起,还是放不下你。
真的很想任性的要你回到我身边。
真的希望这只是一场恶梦。

最遗憾的是我还有很多东西还没有跟你一起完成。
我好想你!