快要崩溃了！

已经是第六天失去Kit了。
到今天都没有任何人再看到她。

原本充满希望她会自己回家的，到现在已经开始慢慢的变绝望。
心情也开始复杂了。
要崩溃了。
昨晚又哭了。
这一个等待和寻找开始难熬了。

原本很感恩的觉得菩萨和佛祖赐给我一直都很想拥有的猫咪。
但是现在埋冤者为什么这个幸福那么的短站。
我心很痛。
感觉像被菩萨和佛祖背叛了。

这让我很绝望。
已经受够被人背叛了。
原本一直受到菩萨和佛祖的疼爱还觉得比较安慰。
这让我投进了对神的绝望。
觉得自己太孤独了。

为什要这样给我开心然后又脱去太呢？
我还要面对多少的考验呢？
难道连我生日的月份里都要我伤心的过吗？！

难道我不能开开心心的生活吗？
对人生感觉的很累。

Broken sad emotion

I guess my sad emotion had broken or missing from the inner me.
Day 5 after losing Kit, my newly rescued cat and new love in my live I only shed tear one time and only less than 5 minutes.

It is so weird to have such a peace in me when I lost my cat.
I think this is not the usual me....
Anything related to my furkids, it impact me deeply emotionally.
But not this time.

Could it be a sign that she will return?
Yeah...I hope so....
But this unusual peace of mind do caused me concern if my emotion had broken.

My pretty Kit missing since 4 Aug 2017, 6:30 am. Hope she will be blessed and reach home safely.