December will never be same

I used to love December.
I used to play Christmas song during this time.
December never be the same miracle month for me.
It'll be a month I missed her and painful for me.
It's been a week of having sleeping disorder since she admitted to vet.
Having difficulty to sleep at night and waking up daily with heartache.
Accepting the fact slowly but missing her a lot.
There's still a lot I have yet do for her...........