带着悲伤结束2014

情爱的Kimi,
2014 还剩下一小时就结束了。
妈咪还是想你。
最近天气很冷, 也让妈咪想起每次天气变冷时你都会睡在妈咪脚边取暖。
好怀念你的体温。
妈咪今天开始都念一点你的名。
慢慢要适应喊你的名时可以不流泪。
还在练习当中。
妈咪一定会好好的迎接新的一年。
祝福妈咪在新的一年会过的更好。
也希望你能够好好的修行做仙犬直到我们能够在相遇。再次让妈咪拥抱你!
永远爱你的妈咪。

今天想对你说

妈咪希望这五年来你跟妈咪都过得很开心。
妈咪希望你感受到妈咪对你的爱。
妈咪希望你知道你是无法取代的。
妈咪希望你没有后悔过做妈咪的毛孩。
妈咪在今晚又想起你。
妈咪好怀念你。

如何可以停止这思念?

如何可以停止对它的思念又不会忘了它的一切?
再次很想抱它。

Getting worse..............

I missed her more and more for the past few days.
There are a lot of questions popping up in my mind for the past fews.
Question such as:
1. Did I notice it earlier enough?
2. How could this happened?
3. Why she was taken away from me?
4. Why I had to go through this kind of pain?
etc.....

I guess I really tried to suppressed it for the past two weeks.
Watching comedy so that I can laugh.
Make myself busy with work so that I don't have time to think about.

I guess now, the suppression slowly not working.
I had kept watching her photo.
I pretended I'm fine for her leaving when I'm not.

And I felt suffocated holding up my tears.
I really missed her.

Am I ready?

Am I ready for another dog?
She supposed to join us to add on the family to four member.
She was never suppose to be a replacement as Kimi is irreplaceable.
I dunno if I'm ready.
But faith need companion during my work hour.
I'm not sure if I can handle this well.
I'm doubtful.
But I hope it will went well.

崩溃了

忍到今天终于崩溃了。
已经失去她两个星期了。
很想她。。。

Hold住了。失败了。

今天回到家又突然很想她。
Hold住了泪水和心的痛。
把埋着的泪用深呼吸就吞下去了。
还是无法接受她离开了。
我还是想她。
还是不敢提起她的离开。
期待着她的回来。
眼泪还是忍不住了。
今晚又哭着睡觉。
每晚睡觉都为了到梦里寻找她。
想告诉她:我好爱她。