再过多几关因该就破关了吧，Is going to be end soon...

Why said so? Cause I had went to cinema watch movie. Which I think I had not done it for at least past 6 months. Why it means a lot to me? Cause watching movie is our favourite activities. Or to be exact, his favourite activity.
Haha...been trying to do so few times this years, it end up no chance to do so, or maybe it is not the time yet...But finally I did it today, glad I did enjoy the movie very much..even without him...I'm proud of myself and happy I made it. The Avengers will be the movie for me to remember for my new life as I had the courage to put my step in a cinema. Grateful to Buddha for giving me such courage...
I guess, few more step left, I'll be letting go soon...perhaps..Pray to Buddha for this. Amitabha

Past 7 months

Another 3 days, it will be past 7 months. 7 months of painstaking moment in my life. Is 7 months already...still yet to settle  everything as the house S&P yet done. Of course I wish it to be settle everything soon...as soon as possible.
I had managed well my feelings, the memories, and my own life. He meant nothing to me anymore. Even in my dream, I dreamt he came back beg me but...haha...without any thinking, I had straight away rejected. I'm glad I had get over this soon. All had past...Am heading to new life...
I believe everything happen for a reason....I believe Buddha did arranging the future path for me...in had been arranged. I'm grateful for all the experience gave to me. Appreciate what I had went through as I had became better person than before...

最近都让我开心的事。。希望能够天天都像这个旅行那样开心。

我有那样坚强吗？

今天鼓起勇气去见曾经认识他的朋友。一个卖电脑的朋友。原来他也知道了我们的故事。而且他也看过那个她。每当知道认识他的人见过那个她，我的心都会痛一下。还没放得下吧。。。还不能接受那个她的存在。我还想过如果见到她， 还要好好的感谢她的出现。如果这个痛还存在，我能勇敢的去面对面感谢她吗？我不确定。但我还是要感谢她。
他的朋友赞我很坚强。我不确定是否我是个坚强的女生吗。不过只能说得，没有那些贵人出现和佛祖的祝福，
也许我也熬不过这关。感恩佛祖给的祝福和送来的贵人。有了他们，我才可以走出来。所以，我不是
那么坚强，只是有了佛祖的祝福和安排，才有了今天的我。感恩，阿弥陀佛！

曾经

曾经想过如果我也想他那样另外找到一个人来爱，现在的我是否会好过点？是否没那么寂寞？是否不会感到输到一败涂地？是否少点泪？是否不会有二梦？是否睡到跟好？是否能够少点痛？这也是不能决定的答案？再问会自己， 如果这个人真的出现了，我是用什么心情来接受他？真心？还是代替品？会长久吗？我也不确定。只是很确定的是，我尝试了爱情的甜也式了它的痛。但我已经不能再试它的痛。因为我确定我不能也没有那力量再试它的苦。

Habits to get rid off

1. Stop sharing every moment I went through
2. Not waiting anyone to accompany for shopping
3. Not waiting anyone to accompany for movie
4. Not keep sharing my emo with others
5. Not waiting for anyone for trip
6. Not dependent on anyone
7. Stop feel lonely
8. Stop missing him
9. Stop curios on what's going on with him
10. Stop cry for him anymore
11. Stop missing his hugs
12.  Stop missing those days
13. Stop hoping that he will regret what he did
14. Stop wishing him will come back
15. Stop jealous on her
16. Stop dreaming for the future or dream I had before

一个人的情人节

昨天结束了，八年的感情。今天就遇见了情人节。天给我的考验太难了吧。八年都有人陪伴的情人节，突然只有我一个人度过。明智他已有了新欢而过，我还要去怀念。怀念一些已经不再属于自己的回忆。不明白为什么八年前，一个人度过时，可以忘了一干二净。曾经也一个人度过，可是也无法想起那些日子和感觉。忘不了的就那些短短八年的情人节。二人度过的情人节。讨厌，讨厌自己一直怀念那过去。很讨厌软弱的自己。讨厌那一败涂地的感觉。老天爷也偏偏在我最失落时就下起雨来。。。好像在陪伴我在哭泣。
一直说服自己，只是过渡期。一过了，就海阔天空。只要再撑过这关，我又升级了，那在来临的几关都可以熬过的。一切都会过去。相信自己会幸福。不一定要有另一半才会幸福。自己也可以活得很幸福。