虽然已经做了决定但是还是很复杂的情绪。
以为很肯定的向钱看了。但丢信那时还是会痛的。 (´･_･`)
谈起来还是会落泪的。 (ㄒoㄒ)
毕竟在这里已经四年了。
从四个人开始到如今已有二十多个人了。
从乱七八糟的到如今总算稳定了。
从天天大吵大闹到如今都可以天天听到笑声。
也看到自己在这的成长。
四年在这里,有过美好的回忆也有过最伤心的。让自己学会了人生道理。看清自己的能力也看到自己有不少的弱点。
总满足不了别人和自己。越来越没有成就感。也越来越少奋斗精神。也感觉越来越耐久因为无法再付出百分百。
感觉好像被困着。无法呼吸。天天都很紧张。天天都在催眠自己改变想法。要对这些二十多个人交代做好本分。
逼自己做不喜欢的就因为我要对的起他们。逼自己读些没有兴趣的就因为我要对他们负责任。
一切都为了他们把自己逼得紧紧让自己可以当上个好榜样。
一切都好累了。已经没精力去再逼自己了。
就算自己被列为是个失败者或是个半途而废的弱者,已毫无相关了。已经不重要了。
我要的是自己的。别在为任何人了。
It's all about me now.
自私也好都清楚最候的路是家人的陪伴。
请原谅我的自私的想法。
战斗了好几个月,终于胜利的是自私的想法。
对不起不能伟大的继续下去了。
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
还是复杂的
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
负三月 :(
三月真的充满了负能量。 :(
三月开始就不断地受到坏消息。
首先在工作上的坏消息。
然后就是国际的坏消息。MH370消失了！
过后旧同事又入院做化疗。
接下来一位认识的叔叔因为肺癌过世了！
再加上好姐妹在家门口被打劫和抢车。幸好人没事。
一连串的坏消息真的吃不消。
搞到正个月的情绪都低落。
到今天都无法站起来。
低落的情绪好让我为了工作哭泣几次了。
所有正面的想法和看法突然消失了。就好像MH370那样消失。
静坐，念经，请假，走街，看戏和吃好料都无法把这低落的情绪赶走。
这情绪真如低潮那段日子一样。
可以突然自己一个人哭了起来。
可以听下歌也哭了起来。
像是个爱哭鬼那样。
就如那次一样，无法控制的情绪。
请求我爱的正能量，快点回到我身边吧！
我讨厌现在的我！
快点让我再充满正能量吧！
正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！
三月开始就不断地受到坏消息。
首先在工作上的坏消息。
然后就是国际的坏消息。MH370消失了！
过后旧同事又入院做化疗。
接下来一位认识的叔叔因为肺癌过世了！
再加上好姐妹在家门口被打劫和抢车。幸好人没事。
一连串的坏消息真的吃不消。
搞到正个月的情绪都低落。
到今天都无法站起来。
低落的情绪好让我为了工作哭泣几次了。
所有正面的想法和看法突然消失了。就好像MH370那样消失。
静坐，念经，请假，走街，看戏和吃好料都无法把这低落的情绪赶走。
这情绪真如低潮那段日子一样。
可以突然自己一个人哭了起来。
可以听下歌也哭了起来。
像是个爱哭鬼那样。
就如那次一样，无法控制的情绪。
请求我爱的正能量，快点回到我身边吧！
我讨厌现在的我！
快点让我再充满正能量吧！
正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！正能量！
Friday, February 28, 2014
机会来了？
自从跟这家公司打拼，也从没想过还会有人挖角了。
也没有想过还能让外国公司看上挖角！
从入行到至今，能够当上厂家的员工都是这行最顶的。
当然心动了。除了是厂家的员工还有能跑海外。
还有人工都会高点啦！
来的太突然了。
考虑了几个晚上，和自己的理智和感觉挣扎了。
终于选上了理智。当然当理智赢了，也是决定是自私的。
虽然一切都还没确实。
我是很想得到这个机会的。
Sunday, February 23, 2014
三位小雪主人
说起来缘分真的很奇怪。
有时来到的缘分是美妙的。
有时来时带着伤害。
但这次想说的都是美妙。
这份美妙的缘分都是三位小雪主人。
为什么会美妙呢？
大家从来都互相不认识的在一间宠物美容学院认识的。
个都有不同背景和生活，能在这间学院里结缘也是个缘分。
奇妙在除了爱狗自外，三人也是很爱小雪的哦！
还记得当时还是低潮时，对任何人都带了防备之心没想过还能较新朋友。
所以那时抱着的心态就是上学和放学而已。
回想起来都是要感恩有了这两位小雪主人的出现。
也让一个人上课的我变得不孤单了。
在吃饭时大家坐在一起骂老师骂院长骂学校。
上课时大家一起偷师看老师怎样剪毛孩。然后一起研究到底是怎样的。
就这样，大家认识了进三年。
感觉都好像认识了很久。久不见也不会觉得生疏。
还能聊的很多。还是狗狗的魅力大。真确的是小雪。
在二月二十二日其中一位小雪主人结婚了！
也难得可以聚一聚！还是难得可以三位都美美的哦！
对啦！当宠物美容师是没有扮美美的咯！
要剪肮肮胀胀毛孩儿真的不简单。披头散发的，还要臭肮脏毛孩的味。
难得能扮美美当然不能失去合照的机会咯！
虽然主角很忙也感谢有个难得的合照机会。
希望以后还可以有机会拍跟多大家能够扮的美美的照。
也感谢大家的出现！帮我在我生活里填了不少美好的回忆！
有时来到的缘分是美妙的。
有时来时带着伤害。
但这次想说的都是美妙。
这份美妙的缘分都是三位小雪主人。
为什么会美妙呢？
大家从来都互相不认识的在一间宠物美容学院认识的。
个都有不同背景和生活，能在这间学院里结缘也是个缘分。
奇妙在除了爱狗自外，三人也是很爱小雪的哦！
还记得当时还是低潮时，对任何人都带了防备之心没想过还能较新朋友。
所以那时抱着的心态就是上学和放学而已。
回想起来都是要感恩有了这两位小雪主人的出现。
也让一个人上课的我变得不孤单了。
在吃饭时大家坐在一起骂老师骂院长骂学校。
上课时大家一起偷师看老师怎样剪毛孩。然后一起研究到底是怎样的。
就这样，大家认识了进三年。
感觉都好像认识了很久。久不见也不会觉得生疏。
还能聊的很多。还是狗狗的魅力大。真确的是小雪。
在二月二十二日其中一位小雪主人结婚了！
也难得可以聚一聚！还是难得可以三位都美美的哦！
对啦！当宠物美容师是没有扮美美的咯！
要剪肮肮胀胀毛孩儿真的不简单。披头散发的，还要臭肮脏毛孩的味。
难得能扮美美当然不能失去合照的机会咯！
希望以后还可以有机会拍跟多大家能够扮的美美的照。
也感谢大家的出现！帮我在我生活里填了不少美好的回忆！
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
十个对如果还要谈恋爱的自己说!
情人节到了,今年特别的是农历和阳历的情人节都同一天。是否还能遇上让我再心动的男人,我还未知。不过还没遇上之前要再次提醒自己从过去的经验学习。别再犯同样的错误了。
1. 别失去自我
爱你的人不会要你改变。他爱你是因为你。
2. 别失去理智
现实的爱情不想韩剧的爱情故事。韩剧里的爱情是有剧本的。现实的是要两个人一起写的。
3. 别期待太多
话都有说 , 期待越高失望越高。别期待对方任何事因为爱你的自然会给你希望。
4. 别为爱情而哭
如果一个只会让你哭的男人那就放弃这段爱情吧。爱情不该只有泪洗脸而已。
5. 别怀疑自己的直觉
女人的第六灵感还是准确的。别怀疑自己的第六感。
6. 别去记任何的记念日
不要让每个记念日都会带来分手候的伤痛。如果真心的, 天天都是记念日。
7. 别渴望太多
不去渴望就不会有任何的期待。让一切都顺其自然吧!别渴望拥有韩剧里的剧情。那不是真实的。
8. 别委屈自己
别再为任何男人委屈自己做自己不喜欢的事。如果爱你的不会勉强你做你不喜欢的事。
9. 别为了他而放弃自己所爱的
别因为他不喜欢就放弃自己所爱做的或爱的东西。因为他没有权利阻止我去爱我爱的东西。
10 . 别把他为中心
虽然他还会是重要的。但是如果把他为中心了,那就会失去自我了。什么都为他而打算还有安排生活。将就会失去所有以上提过的事了。
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
2014 New Year Resolution
Another year passed and a year wiser now.
2013, what this year about? Looking back at 2013 Resolution,
2013 Resolution:
1. To get a house at Taman Tasik Puchong same place with my bro and sis
2. To have ideal salary increment
3. To make sure by end of the year the pet shop will be profitable
4. To reduce another 3kg of my body weight
5. To have financial freedom (guess another 9 years later for my car loan
6. To achieved company target of RM12M
7. To have more time for myself
8. Back packing travel to Taiwan by year end (either alone or with someone)
9. To love myself more
10. Be a better me to face all the new challenges
2013 is not a good year neither is a bad one.
It been a roller coaster for my life in 2013. I had went through the ups and downs in this year.
With the list of the resolutions, only one of it had been achieved.
What happened?!
It is a tiring year for me....superb tiring.
I ended 2013 with flu and bruises on body.
With a tired body, mind and soul.
Had I overworked myself? Sacrifying all the rest time and leisure time will it be worth while in the end?
There go....I start to be doubtful on the resolution. But still keeping myself be optimistic as possible.
Fill myself with more positive energy. My meditation get shorter, my patience also get shorter....damn....It is not good though. The worst still I don't felt any great achievement in 2013?!
What had I achieved? hhhmmmm...gotta switch channel, instead of calculating all the negative feature, I shall start counting my blessing.
1. I manage bought the house near by my sis and bro house
2. I achieved my personal target in the company
3. I am a proud pet shop owner
4. I manage to harvest a big project which I had been work on since 3 years ago
5. I manage to get the team well structured now
6. I had learnt to be more independent
7. I had learnt to be more outspoken
8. I manage to handle fierce dog that come for grooming
All of these is a blessing and learning for me. All these is my blessings. I'm grateful for that.
This year I need to repeat certain my last year resolution:
2014 Resolution:
1. To celebrate CNY in my own house
2. To have an ideal salary increment
3. To make sure by end of the year the pet shop will be profitable
4. To reduce another 3kg of my body weight
5. To have financial freedom on the credit card used for furnishing the house
6. To make sure the whole team can achieved company target of RM12.5M
7. To have more time for myself and my loved one
8. To ensure I did back packing travel to Taiwan by year end (either alone or with someone)
9. To go back to gym daily after all the house moving is settled
9. To keep on love myself more and people that love me
10. To always be better me to face all the new challenges
11. To furnish my room in first quarter
12. To fully furnish my house by end of the year
13. To have house warming by end of the year
14. To invite my dear friends to visit the house by end of the year
15. To be paperless so that I'm going to get a Note 8.0 for achieving this. :)
After all the hiccups through out the years. I guess I gained more now. I'm more ready for more challenges in 2014.
Though resolution getting more but part of it sure achievable. But hope all the resolutions can be achieved this year and no more bring forward next year!
Ok! Keep on fighting!
2013, what this year about? Looking back at 2013 Resolution,
2013 Resolution:
1. To get a house at Taman Tasik Puchong same place with my bro and sis
2. To have ideal salary increment
3. To make sure by end of the year the pet shop will be profitable
4. To reduce another 3kg of my body weight
5. To have financial freedom (guess another 9 years later for my car loan
6. To achieved company target of RM12M
7. To have more time for myself
8. Back packing travel to Taiwan by year end (either alone or with someone)
9. To love myself more
10. Be a better me to face all the new challenges
2013 is not a good year neither is a bad one.
It been a roller coaster for my life in 2013. I had went through the ups and downs in this year.
With the list of the resolutions, only one of it had been achieved.
What happened?!
It is a tiring year for me....superb tiring.
I ended 2013 with flu and bruises on body.
With a tired body, mind and soul.
Had I overworked myself? Sacrifying all the rest time and leisure time will it be worth while in the end?
There go....I start to be doubtful on the resolution. But still keeping myself be optimistic as possible.
Fill myself with more positive energy. My meditation get shorter, my patience also get shorter....damn....It is not good though. The worst still I don't felt any great achievement in 2013?!
What had I achieved? hhhmmmm...gotta switch channel, instead of calculating all the negative feature, I shall start counting my blessing.
1. I manage bought the house near by my sis and bro house
2. I achieved my personal target in the company
3. I am a proud pet shop owner
4. I manage to harvest a big project which I had been work on since 3 years ago
5. I manage to get the team well structured now
6. I had learnt to be more independent
7. I had learnt to be more outspoken
8. I manage to handle fierce dog that come for grooming
All of these is a blessing and learning for me. All these is my blessings. I'm grateful for that.
This year I need to repeat certain my last year resolution:
2014 Resolution:
1. To celebrate CNY in my own house
2. To have an ideal salary increment
3. To make sure by end of the year the pet shop will be profitable
4. To reduce another 3kg of my body weight
5. To have financial freedom on the credit card used for furnishing the house
6. To make sure the whole team can achieved company target of RM12.5M
7. To have more time for myself and my loved one
8. To ensure I did back packing travel to Taiwan by year end (either alone or with someone)
9. To go back to gym daily after all the house moving is settled
9. To keep on love myself more and people that love me
10. To always be better me to face all the new challenges
11. To furnish my room in first quarter
12. To fully furnish my house by end of the year
13. To have house warming by end of the year
14. To invite my dear friends to visit the house by end of the year
15. To be paperless so that I'm going to get a Note 8.0 for achieving this. :)
After all the hiccups through out the years. I guess I gained more now. I'm more ready for more challenges in 2014.
Though resolution getting more but part of it sure achievable. But hope all the resolutions can be achieved this year and no more bring forward next year!
Ok! Keep on fighting!
Thursday, December 26, 2013
JJ 林俊杰演唱会
还以为这辈子只会付钱看王力宏的演唱会而已。
谁知道在2007年的那年在王力宏的演唱会里，邀请了JJ林俊杰来当嘉宾。
出场时，各自弹着自己的钢琴而互长对方的歌。
力宏唱了JJ的江南而JJ唱了力宏的Forever Love。
两人的歌声都太迷人了。可以把对方的歌唱到像自己的歌那样。
就在那时跟自己说如果JJ有来开唱我一定要去。
就将等了六年。在8.12.13他终于来开唱了。
这次还是本小姐1第一次做山顶的朋友。
一直以来买力宏的演唱会票都没试过买最便宜的。
第一次坐那么远。看着那小小的舞台有点无奈咯。
也有它的好处的，坐在最顶的风景都漂亮的。
看着歌迷们拿着不同颜色的荧光棒就像天空里的星星一样。
原本都不是很期待的演唱会都能让我high起来。
原本打算安静的坐着听歌,原来在现场是不可能的。
在听着JJ的演唱，原来都有很多他的歌·是我喜欢的。
也有很多都陪我度过最低潮的时刻。
都知道会为那一首歌掉泪的。
往往都想不到为着首歌掉泪：我还想她
差点忘了那段时间都有听这首歌度过那段时间。
那时还想他的时候都有听到这首歌。
能够把这首歌忘了是不是代表也不再像他了吗？
以为“记得‘是让我落泪的一首没想到JJ先唱‘我还想她’。
真的万万都想不到啊！
也让我哭的落花流水的也就是‘修炼爱情’配上的动漫。
也是最后的一首的慢歌。
太棒的动漫配上很好听的歌。
让大家最high的就是当JJ唱完Micheal Jackson的歌后，他尽然把他身上的背心扯烂秀他胸肌！
大家都尖叫。可惜就那短短的几分钟。
就像看到雪糕但是还没有添到。
虽然远可是身材很棒！
整体来说，我都很enjoy！
希望下一次演唱会能够买跟加贵的票，让我可以近距离看看JJ的脸。
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